I'm just not sure. Not sure at all.
Well, I mean, I'm sure I love sequins, corduroys, and ruffled wool cardigans.
I'm also entirely sure that I love the color combination of mint and cantaloupe/peach.
Totally a winner.
But here's what I'm not sure of:
"BE STILL before the Lord and wait patiently for Him."
To be still. To be patient. These are virtues that are utterly difficult for this stubborn, hurting heart of mine.
But these are virtues He is calling me to.
He is inviting me into His presence as I wait.
He invites His darlings to come, and wait, and watch.
To expect miracles.
To adore Him in silence.
To pour out the oil of our inner hearts by worshipping Him in presence and patience.
Not to be doormats. Not to be unable to make decisions. Not to be silenced.
But to be laying down control, so we may pick up contentment.
I want now. But You want WHOLE for me. I want here. But You want BEST for me. I want more. But You want ALL for me.
My stubborn, selfish heart wants now, here, and more.
Father, You have whole, best, and all for me.
"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under Heaven."
May I wait with purpose, patiently, in your presence, pouring out my spirit so that I may be filled with Yours.